I wouldn’t say I have the best coping skills. But there’s few things that can pull me out of my head, and make being a functioning human possible. One of those things is marijuana.
Over the past few years I’ve been a daily Marijuana smoker. It helps with so many issues in my life. Some issues are I won’t be hungry for months, insomnia, anxiety, panic attacks, flashbacks, and other related issues. Marijuana helps all those and more.
I have been put on SSRI medications. They never helped, but always had some negative effect. I stopped taking them. Then at the start of the year I also stopped smoking. That brought a whole new level of anxiety and depression. For days I was suffering. So I decided to start the SSRI again. And oh my goodness that was a horrible mistake.
I did some research and found a scholarly article where it talked about the effects of SSRIs on patients with anxiety. In the group of rats with anxiety and ptsd, when they took SSRI they induced anxiety and panic attacks. Scientists don’t know how to block that effect.
I did not notice the severity of that side affect because I had weed. With out it I had one of the worst panic attacks in public, that I have ever experienced. I was at work and had to push through my 8 hour day with anxiety the whole time. But I made it. From this experience I learned a few things.
- I will make it
- It will end
- Weed is a magic drug
- Pills cause more harm than good
I still don’t understand why doctors put patients with anxiety on SSRI when it is common knowledge it can induce anxiety. Seems very redundant to me. But now I have made the choice to seek out CBD. I want to go through my day as a “normal” human but without being “stoned”. Hopefully this will be a new milestone in my journey to being a better me!